MEN

This is hilariously funny but .... TRUE! he he he

>For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free.
>Here's an update for you: Now days, 80% of women are against marriage,
>WHY?
>Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a
>little sausage.
>
>Men are like....
>
>1. Men are like ..Laxatives ...... They irritate the crap out of you.
>2. Men are like.Bananas ....... The older they get, the less firm they
>are.
>3. Men are like ........Weather .. Nothing can be done to change them.
>4. Men are like .Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
>5. Men are like ......Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually
>head right for your hips.
>6. Men are like .....Commercials ....... You can't believe a word they
>say.
>7. Men are like Department Stores ..... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
>8. Men are like ......Government Bonds ... They take soooooooo long to
>mature.
>9. Men are like .....Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of
>emotion.
>10. Men are like .Popcorn ..... They satisfy you, but only for a little
>while.
>11. Men are like Snowstorms .... You never know when they're coming, how
>many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
>12. Men are like ..........Lava Lamps ...... Fun to look at, but not very
>bright.
>13. Men are like Parking Spots . All the good ones are taken, the rest are
>handicapped.

A SLICE OF GOOD NEWS

I received an email this afternoon from Miko telling me that her Sister's liver is ok according to the biopsy result.

I'm hoping the good news keep on pouring in on us, keep them coming!

END OF MONTH BLUES

It's nearing month end and we are all in dire need to meet our month end targets. It's what I call the 'month end blues ' .Nobody is spared in my department, everybody needs to catch up and it's like a mad race in the office for everybody wants to cure the accounts and all are trying not to let the balance flow to the next if not the previous bucket or else woe to the group who will catch the very unwelcoming balance which will be added to their portfolio - nobody wants to have this, not another head ache!

I am really hoping we will be able to meet if not exceed our target for this month
just like what we did last month.

I only have three words for now ... HARDWORK, HOPE & FAITH.

WALK LIKE A MAN

The first time I heard this song in the movie " Heart and Souls " I fell in love with it not to mention the movie is part of my all time fave list. The tune is very catchy and since I'm also into the oldies but goodies songs of the 50s and 60s - thanks to my Father, I would always sing this song whenever I'm in a happy mood.It really is fun to sing this tune, it also helps change my mood whenever I hear it.

I'm posting this and I hope it has the same effect in you.

Enjoy! .... I'm really going goo goo gaga over this YOU TUBE thing (it's not obvious, is it? he he he).


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Oh how you tried to cut me down to size
Telling dirty lies to my friends
But my own father said give her up don't bother
The world isn't coming to an end

(he said just) Walk like a man
Talk like a man
Walk like a man my son
No woman's worth
Crawling on the earth
Just walk like a man my son

Good-bye baby I dont mean maybe
I'm gonna get along somehow
Soon you'll be cryin on account of all your lyin
Oh yeah just look who's laughing now

(I'm gonna) walk like a man
Fast as I can
Walk like a man from you
I'll tell the world to forget about it girl
And walk like a man from you

AND SO IT GOES

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

LULLABYE by BILLY JOEL

Billy joel is one of my fave singers and composers. HE IS A GENIUS! Just want to share with you one of his marvelous songs.I know this is not him who's actually playing the piano but it's the best video clip I saw.Besides it's just piano accompaniment so if you know the song just sing along!

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Goodnight, my angel
Time to close your eyes
And save these
questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I
think you know what I've been trying to say
I promised I would never leave
you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go
No matter where you
are
I never will be far away

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to
sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you
sang for me
WHen we went sailing on an emerald bay
ANd like a boat out on
the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
THe water's dark
And deep inside
this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me

Goodnight, my
angel
Now it's time to dream
And dream how wonderful your life will
be
Someday your child may cry
And if you sing this lullabye
Then in
your heart
There will always be a part of me

Someday we'll all be
gone
But lullabyes go on and on...
They never die
That's how you
And
I
Will be

EVEN GOD CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST

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Even God Can't Change The Past

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why
Who am I

Darling when I'm hurt
That’s when I'm satisfied
Tell me what it's worth
To persue the Holy life
I can see your face
Even when I close my eyes
I can give you love
Even when I've been denied

Who's loving who
Who's fooling who

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why
Who am I

Darling what is love
If it never gets you high
Should we sit and wait
While the wasted years roll by
Is there time to say
If I lied, I apologize
Never go away
Please stay here by my side

Who's fooling who
Who's loving who

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why
Who an I

They try to break you
They try to steal your stars
If they ever take you
Just remember who you are
They try to hate you
Just like some love bizarre
It’s a sign of weakness
To be afraid of what you are

Who's loving who
Who's fooling who

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why

VINDALOO!

Here's what I've been singing along with my new found English friends during the World Cup Fever in Singapore!

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Vindaloo

Where on earth are you from?
We're from England
Where you come from
Do you put the kettle on?
Kick it
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Bonjour
Nah Nah Nah
Monsieur
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah
We're England
We're gonna score one more than you
England!
Can I introduce you please
To a lump of Cheddar Cheese
Knit one, Pearl one
Drop one, Curl one
Kick it
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah
We're England
We're gonna score one more than you
England!
Me and me Mum and me Dad and me Gran
We're off to Waterloo
Me and me Mum and me Dad and me Gran
And a bucket of Vindaloo
Bucket!
Vindaloo
Vindaloo
Vindaloo
Vindaloo
Vindaloo Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Vindaloo
Vindaloo
Vindaloo Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Vindaloo
And we all like Vindaloo
We're England
We're gonna score one more than you
England!
Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Vindaloo
And we all like Vindaloo
We're England
We're gonna score one more than you
England!
Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Nah Nah Nah
Nah Nah Nah Nah Nah
Vindaloo
Vindaloo
And we all like Vindaloo
We're England
We're gonna score one more than you
England!!

LOCK AND KEY

Finally! I was able to find out how to post the video and audio of this marvelous song! ENJOY!

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RnR and BnB

Na ah! These are not new RPGs (role-playing games).

I had a little relaxation and recreation (R&R) last night with my officemates. We have this inter-departmental bowling tournament in the office and I'm part of my department's team - just for fun. We went to Paeng Nepomuceno's Sports Center and I certainly had a grand time!

I'm not really good at it, I just know how to play the game. I didn't get strikes usually spares but then again I haven't played the game for years and we only had practice a couple of minutes before the actual game - thanks to the sucky traffic in the Metro especially since it's a Friday night.

I know we won some games and I was just so happy I didn't get the lowest score. I know I can be good at it if I practice besides I need a lighter bowling ball, the lightest weight was 6! But it was ok, the most important thing of all is that I had fun with friends from the office.Some are REALLY good though!

After the bowling game I suggested we play billiards since the place has both. So we did and we played the usual "9 ball" and "block and stripes".They were all surprised that I know both sports.Oh! well I sure know how to have fun ya kno!

These are two of the sports I LOVE to play. I know basically they're more for men but hey what men can do women can do as well at this age - even better.

What happened last night was an unusual routine. I usually have a boring one. I wake up to go to work after office I go straight home. Seldom do I go out especially now that Miko is already in America.When he was still here, usually after work we eat out for dinner and or watch a movie and that was every day! He doesn't cook at times we just order and stay at home.

That routine was a choice for I got tired of partying.I had that when I was younger. But then I feel like going back to those times of clubbing and partying again though I prefer doing that when I'm on vacation. I'm not really a party girl but when I used to hang out with friends like that we went bar hopping every Friday night and it continued til weekends but it came to a point when I got tired of that routine.

I think a little R&R is not bad. NOT AT ALL! Everybody needs to break his routine at some point in their lives.

So here's to future R&R, here's to another episodes of Bowling and Billiards, here's to more BnB - BOOZE & BAR HOPPING! he! he! he!

INSPIRING

Last Sunday I was able to watch the speech of Singapore's Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong and I can't help but be impressed and inspired by what he said. No sugar coating, no beating around the bush, very realistic but still optimistic. No wonder Singapore is a progressive country and its economy is still booming.

I do hope one day our country will go back to its old glory ... I REALLY hope so!

A FORWARDED MESSAGE FROM A FRIEND

DREAM ABOUT WHAT PLEASES YOU,
GO WHERE YOU WANT TO GO,
BE WHO YOU WANT TO BE,
YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE,
TO DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY.

FIND ON THIS WONDERFUL QUEST OF LIFE
ENOUGH HAPPINESS TO SPREAD IT AROUND
ENOUGH ROAD BLOCKS TO BECOME STRONGER
ENOUGH SORROWS TO KEEP A GOOD SOUL
ENOUGH WISHES TO BE HAPPY FROM WITHIN ...

THE HAPPIEST PEOPLE DON'T NECESSARILY HAVE EVERYTHING;
THEY SIMPLY UTILIZES ALL POTENTIAL IN WHAT LIFE HAS TO OFFER ...

HAPPINESS AWAITS
FOR ALL THE TEARS
FOR THE SUFFERER
FOR THE ONE WHO SEARCHES
FOR THE DEVOTED ONES
FOR THE ONE WHO LOVES
BECAUSE ONLY PEOPLE WHO CARE , CAN APPRECIATE THE IMPORTANCE OF THE THINGS THAT LEAVES TRACES IN LIFE.

FORGET THE PAST, LEAVE BEHIND THE MISTAKES AND SORROWS
LOVE IS BORN WITH A SMILE AND GROWS WITH A KISS

AMAZING

Had a chance to chat with Miko this afternoon when I went to my brother's place. He owns a computer rental shop and when our family's done having lunch and catching up, I went to the shop to surf and chat.

My parents, niece and nephew arrived from the province to visit us but this time they stayed with my brother and his family. My parents usually do their rounds to visit us their children and it's part of our family's culture to have lunch or visit a sibling's place if and when our parents are staying there. Most of the time we even sleep over so we can spend more time together. This is one thing I love about this family and I'm more proud of my parents because of this.

And when I saw him online, we started to chat. I turned the webcam on so he can see me and in the middle of our conversation he noticed that I was wearing the same shirt like him! Same color, same style, same brand and we didn't even planned about this! AMAZING! We both have this green Lacoste polo shirt and both of us are wearing it on our anniversary! ( I still consider today as our anniversary day since it's still August 19 in the U.S he he he )

This is really weird, what a coincidence or is it really fate? Is somebody out there telling me something ..... perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

PLEA

"PLEASE PRAY FOR ME I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH METASTICIZED CANCER AND THERE IS NO CURE ANYMORE IT HAS SPREAD TO MY LUNGS AND LIVER."

Just received this today thru SMS, an immediate relative of Miko was the one who sent this to me. I truly believe that prayers make wonders, I just hope that she will not lose hope moreso lose faith. She will not be alone in this battle, all of us are behind her to support and pray for her.

I hope you also help us in praying for her recovery if not atleast pray that she'll not suffer too much as the days progress.

AMEN!

REMARKABLE

Called Miko in the office this afternoon, around 5 or 6pm August 18 U.S. time. I was alarmed when his friend from the office told me thru YM that he's in his office sad and that I should talk to him. I immediately asked the friend if it's about work but since I didn't get abrupt reply, I just called him up to know the reason straight from the horse's mouth.

I learned that his Sister who lives in San Francisco was diagnosed to have a metasticized cancer. When everybody else was thinking that she's already ok after the chemo and radiation and when her doctor has cleared her up with her cervical cancer, here goes another BIG C story.

It was really a sad news for the whole clan. She's one of the most liked nieces of their uncles and aunties in their family. She used to be an area manager in a multinational drug company before she went to the US to give birth. And with her physique, nobody would ever think in their wildest dreams that she'll undergo such an ordeal.Life is really full of surprises and this is an unwelcomed and not a pleasant one indeed.

Miko and I have agreed since we are from different time zones now that he will call me at a time when it's still both August 19 in our calendar so we can still celebrate this big event together.But with this unexpected turn of event, the mood has changed and I am not a selfish person, I fully understand the situation but it only made me feel how ordinary this supposedly special day went.

He will be going to San Francisco tomorrow to visit his mother and sister and her daughter. He's also going to accompany them on Monday for her doctor's appointment just for him to hear directly from the source her current situation and if ever they'll seek second opinion.

I truly wish the first doctor was wrong. This family has been thru A LOT! and I truly mean a whole lot. I told him to not mind me for his family needs him now more than I do.

I'm sure they will be able to pull thru with this just like before.

And I'm positive about it.

IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face. Today is THE DAY and the first thing that I saw was the bouquet of flowers he sent yesterday.

What a way to start my day! =D

The roses are more beautiful today since most of them have blossomed up.

I just hope they will stay that way and will not wither. Last night when I got home from work I still took pictures of them. This is the second time I received flowers from him. During our courtship days I never received one but I didn't mind for he compensated on watching a movie, going and eating out - my faves.His philosophy is that flowers will wither anyway and it's just a waste of money however, as a woman it feels good whenever somebody gives you flowers, it makes you feel very special and very feminine. I'm really happy he's learning he he he.

Aside from this, I also dreamt of my fave Lola Siote. She past away 4 years ago last Aug 4.She's not my biological grandmother but I love her more than my own since I grew up with her. She's the godmother of my parents in marriage but her husband is the first cousin of my grandfather so technically she's still a grandmother in law. My father works for her and we live in their compound that's why it was her that I was accustomed to seeing and being with during my growing up days. She also loves to drag me along in movie watching, going to the bank and events in the Chinese community and strolling around the city in the province and usually my father will drive us to those events.She treated us as relatives.

During our low and high times as a family she's also part of them that's why we all love her so much. It was our loss as well when she moved on.

In my dreams, Papa and I went to Singapore and we were late for our flight but then we had to go back to the hotel so he can change his clothes, I just can't remember exactly why he had to do that, you know how dream sequences are at times. Anyways, I told him to go ahead so when I got to the hotel I was surprised to see Lola Siote across the street seating on a bench with Selvan and a girl who I think I know in my dreams but now I can no longer remember who she was. She looked young and healthy and was happy to see me too and she waved when she saw me walking towards her. I know in my dreams that my Lola was dead, however I was really happy to see her and when the two other people saw me, the girl came up to me when I was heading towards Lola Siote but I passed her by for I was really going to my grandmother.... and we embraced, I was really happy I think I even cried, but I know those were tears of joy. In my dreams I know the two people didn't know that she's there but when we embraced it seems like they were waiting for me to acknowledge them as well.... weird dream but I was really elated I saw her again even if it's in my dreams.

I sent an SMS message to my godmom, her daughter, to let her know about this dream.I know she's still looking after us and watching us from heaven.

I truly miss her but I know she's just around and I will keep on praying for her soul.

SURPRISE! SURPRISE!

Surely he knows how to surprise me. Although I already have an idea that he's going to send me something today, I still don't know what that is 'til the 2 dozens of beautiful lilac and old rose colored roses wrapped in a purple stationery and tied up with old rose ribbon were delivered to my office this afternoon.

They're so beautiful I took pictures of them - A L - O - T ! I'll post them once I'm done downloading them from my digicam.

I immediately called him when I received the flowers and thanked him for the gift. I just kidded him how come it's colored purple and old rose, he knows that I love the color blue. He rationalized by saying " so you will remember me ". Baby! YOU will never be forgotten! =D

People from the office were teasing me and some of them even asked if it's my birthday and when they found out that it's ordered from the US by Miko, they all had the same comment - he's thoughtful and sweet - Yup! and those are just two of the reasons why I love this guy.

Me and my old department mates had some picture taking after office hours with of course my flowers when everybody went home. They're usually the last ones to leave the office since they are still catching up on their goal for this month. Being with them is fun. Only after the pioneers had left did we all have this kind of relationship, I don't want to rationalize things anymore but it's fun being with them.

They were all teasing me when they saw me carrying my flowers and walking towards them. I walked as if I won in a beauty pageant to humor them as well.

Before all these picture taking was happening, I was so happy to know that my Baby remembers our anniversary and made an extra effort to manifest his love for me and I truly appreciate it. I was so happy I received a bouquet of beautiful flowers this afternoon but when everybody else in my department went home and I was left alone, I suddenly became sad for I have nobody to share my joy with. He's far far away from me. Although it is still tomorrow that we will be celebrating our 4th anniversary, this is the first time we will be celebrating it apart and this part I'm not used to. In every celebration that we have we are together and this is the first.

Good thing, my friends from the department I used to belong in was still there that's why I went to them. But still things are different without Miko.

I know sooner or later we will see each other again. Sooner or later .....

CAN'T WAIT

3 days to go including today and it will be our 4th anniversary. I can't believe we've been together this long. I know we are still working on this relationship of ours but I'm truly blessed to have a wonderful man who tries his damnest best to understand me and loves me and my idiosyncracies and my complexity as an individual and a person as a whole.

As I've been telling my friends, he's one person who is so loving and caring and he's the type who will pamper you and lets you know that across the miles he cares and he's as thoughtful as ever.

He told me that he has a surprise for me tomorrow.

Hmmmm, I wonder what that is! CAN'T WAIT for tomorrow.

THANK YOU BABY! No matter what I will be receiving tomorrow in the office, I'll be very grateful.

THANK YOU FOR LOVING AND CARING FOR ME EVEN IF WE ARE TIME-ZONES AND WORLDS APART!

LOVE YAH!

BACKGROUND MUSIC

It's raining hard once again in the Metro, but I'm happy, I was able to start my week by having my usual 'lunchdate' with the Almighty ( with 2 of my friends from work), found out that one of the buckets I'm handling met the target - yipee! ( I hope the rest will be able to make it as well at the end of this month), visited my collection agency and bonded with my staff, I saw Daphne, looking better - BONUS!, I received an email from Miko who did the same as I did this lunchtime but was not lucky enough to catch the mass - still I'll give him perfect 10 for effort, and I have Julia Fordham for my background music as the night progresses.

Rainy season + Julia Fordham = PERFECT NIGHT!

BETTER

I went to the clinic to see how my baby Daphne is doing and according to her vet she's still under observation. But with the way things are going it seems like her body is responding very well to the medicines her vet is giving her.

She's no longer poohing blood, hopefully yesterday was the last episode of that kind. But early this morning, according to the vet, she vomited a yellowish liquid, more of a watery-like substance.

I just really hope she gets well really soon. When I saw her this evening after work, I can't help but be happy to see her again. She's still not in her usual active self but I can see that she's better today.

She still has her IV on, still recuperating and they're trying to save her from dehydration, but atleast there's an improvement today. They're going to give her food today. I just hope she has regained her appetite back.

I can't help but carried and hugged her when I went to the clinic.I truly miss her a lot! I'm very happy the people in the clinic is taking good care of her.

I can't wait to bring her home and play with her again.

SEE YOU SOON DAPHNE!

DAPHNE

It has been a long day for me. I can't help but cry. My 4-month old Daphne is sick and confined in the dog clinic. She hasn't eaten for 2 days, all she had was water and she had poohed blood and threw up several times. According to her vet, she's in a very critical condition and in a 50/50 survival ratio. Her vet told me that she must have been contaminated with parvo virus. She'll be turning 5 months on the 12th of August.

I'm not that vocal about my love for this canine companion of mine but I do love her. She's so affectionate and I can't help but miss her and her being rowdy.It's quiet around here now that she's in the clinic recuperating.

We may not be speaking the same language but I can truly feel her affection towards me especially when she sees me come home from work. Whenever it's my turn to go to work in the morning, she would always give me that puzzling look and would always turn her head to her right whenver I wave goodbye.

I MISS YOU DAPHNE, I HOPE AND PRAY YOU GET WELL ASAP!

COME HOME SOON DAPHNE !!!

I LOVE YOU!

THE BREAK UP

I had a very nice date yesterday. It was one of those moments when I enjoyed watching a movie while eating inside the theatre.

It was also kinda weird for lately I am no longer used to watching a movie unless it's with Miko.At first I felt uneasy going inside this dark moviehouse and sit beside people I don't really know especially when I found out that there were only few seats taken and the theatre is kinda empty.Oh well! I wonder no more for the movie was on its second week.

Having a date with me, myself and I was kinda refreshing. I used to do this for a very long time (before I met Miko)! I am an independent person. If I want to eat out, watch a concert or movie, I'll do it- all by myself and it's not lonely being alone, contrary to what most people think. I'm not the type who would drag somebody along just so I can do whatever I want to do. At times, I feel like I enjoy whatever I'm doing if I'm alone although there are some things that is best done with a group or with somebody close to your heart.

However, I just felt weird for just a few moments when I stepped inside that dark theatre and I was with no body! I was being cautious for I sat near 2 women, I was 2 seats apart from them, unlike before I would prefer the first seat right next to the aisle in the middle of the theatre so I get the full view of the moviescreen. This time I did the same but I made sure I was near the exit and women.I'm not really scared just cautious.

I watched the movie " THE BREAK UP " starring Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaughn.It's a romantic comedy and I very much like the character of Jennifer Aniston here. I can relate in most aspects, period. The movie tackled basically the differences between a man and a woman and how these two species think. And the repercussions of break ups.

I totally agree on the premise that there are some men who don't know how to appreciate their partner and most often than not couples have miscommunication for these two people think about things differently and that the other person thinks that he fully understand what she's thinking or feeling.

The scene which strikes me the most is when Vince's character doesn't want at first to do the dishes but then later on dragged himself to the kitchen to try to want to do it. I like the argument Jennifer's character brought up, " IT'S NOT DOING WHAT THE OTHER PARTNER WANTS, IT'S WANTING TO DO WHAT THE OTHER PERSON WANTS WITHOUT THE OTHER PERSON TELLING THE OTHER TO DO IT." Make sense right?

It's the initiative that matters. It's thinking in advance. It's trying to read the partner's mind. It's also loving the things the other partner wants doing and be interested too. All these are signs of showing appreciation of the partner's efforts.

Being in a relationship is really hard work. There's these two individuals, two different people from different backgrounds, with different points of view and personalities trying to work things out towards one vision, one goal.

In the book " LOVE STORY " by Erich Segal, it says there " Loving means not looking at each other but looking together at the same direction." If this is the true meaning of loving I guess I am lost right now!

But I'm still hoping I'll find my way home.... I'm trying....very much.

JUST A THOUGHT

" TAKING A STEP is BETTER than not taking a step. "

Need I say more?

UBE THOTS

"NEVER GET TIRED OF DOING LITTLE THINGS FOR OTHERS, COZ SOMETIMES THOSE LITTLE THINGS OCCUPIES D BIGGEST PART IN THEIR HEARTS."

SAD

I don't know why but I just became sad during lunchtime when everybody is chatting and catching up.I had lunch with my colleagues who are also ex-scb and two of those are ex-scb and also ex-ewbc but now working for another card company, they met us to get their separation pay and they treated us out for lunch - they came all the way from ortigas... for no particular reason I became sad and until now I'm still carrying the same tune..... I don't want to feel this way for I know being happy or sad is a choice.But still I can't comprehend why I'm feeling the way I am right now.

Maybe because my fervent dream of working abroad and making it there is getting in my nerves. I really want to fulfill this dream of mine ... soon. I don't like this kind of feeling, it's like the dream is already within my reach but still I can't hold it... it's near yet soooooo far!

I'm really hoping things will pan out VERY SOOOOON! PATIENCE! PATIENCE! PATIENCE! I know I have it - loads of them but lately it seems like I can't wait for my dreams to be realized.

I don't want to feel depressed over this, I know there are still a lot of things in my life right now that I can enjoy and be happy about. I've been hooked with Channel News Asia ever since I came back and I'm already envisioning myself BEING there...living THE LIFE!

I know I want to do a whole lot of things in my life and one of them is working abroad and making it big there.Lately, LIVING my life is my focus. I have no regrets whatsoever and this attitude I want to continue that's why I want to do all the things in my life in this lifetime. If I want to make an autobiography I want it to be a page turner!

And I know I will do and can do anything as long as I put my heart and mind on it and that's what I've been doing ever since although can't have them all right? I'm still human, a mere mortal but at least I'm trying to be the best mortal that I can be.

I'm not losing hope ... that's NOT me. I'm sad now but I know tomorrow is another day and I'll be better.

A WHOLE LOT!

THE COUNTDOWN

18 more days and we will be celebrating our 4th anniversary. Time flies really fast when you are having fun but recently, it seems like time is slowing down... but I'm still holding on.... I'm in no rush anyways.

" I will cross the bridge when I get there " this is now my motto. I do not want to expect nor assume anymore. If it happens it happens.It's a sacred thing and I want it to happen at the right time and if he feels ready to make the plunge. I just hope we are in sync when that time comes.

I'm no longer in the waiting mode. Right now I do things to make my dreams a reality, to make them happen. I really am pursuing my dreams and I'm doing research and contacting people that will help me reach my dreams and goals in life.

I really want to work abroad. It's a childhood dream. To live independently in a different country, in a culture unaccustomed but known to me. And I know the perfect place for me is Singapore. It's west meeting east. It's a chinese dominating country but english is widely spoken. And if ever I'll be surrounded by Chinese , I definitely won't mind for I grew up in a chinese community. I'd be more scared if I'll be in Malaysia or other parts of Asia for I'm not fully familiar with their language. And the unknown as they say scares you - whole lot.Besides it's the most sophisticated and the safest place in this part of the globe.And the list continues....

I have high hopes that the dreams will be realized soon. I really want to fulfill them before I settle down. I hope the Almighty will allow me to live the life I want to live in this lifetime.

For the meantime, I'm still looking forward to the 19th. I maybe celebrating alone, we maybe apart but I just hope that he still has the urge to surprise me as he always does.

Will I receive a bouquet of flowers in the office? Will I be receiving a surprise whatnot at the workplace? Or just the usual call? In as much as I want to guess, I'd rather not, I might just be surprised that there's no 'pleasant surprise ' at all.

I'll just wait and see.

PEEK A BOO!

A SONG FOR MY BABY

AS LONG AS WE HAVE HOPE, PRAYER, AND A LITTLE BIT OF TIME TO
GET US THERE, HOPE, PRAYER AND TIME

WE ARE ORDINARY PEOPLE, IN EXTRAORDINARY TIMES
AND WE SOMETIMES BURN OUR BRIDGES
AND WE SOMETIMES CUT OUR LINES

AND THE LONELY RIVER, KEEPS ROLLING ON

AS LONG AS WE HAVE HOPE, PRAYER, AND A LITTLE BIT OF TIME TO
GET US THERE, HOPE, PRAYER AND TIME

IN THE DARKEST OF OUR AGES, TILL THE BETTER DAYS RETURN
THERE ARE THOSE WHO WRITE THE PAGES
THERE ARE THOSE WHO LET THEM BURN

AND THE LONELY RIVER, KEEPS ROLLING ON

JUST AS LONG AS WE HAVE HOPE, PRAYER, AND A LITTLE BIT OF TIME TO
GET US THERE, HOPE, PRAYER, AND TIME

BY THE LONELY RIVER, WHERE THE BRIDGES BURN
WE SHALL RETURN

AS LONG AS WE HAVE HOPE, PRAYER, AND A LITTLE BIT OF TIME TO
GET US THERE, HOPE, PRAYER, AND TIME
HOPE, PRAYER, AND A LITTLE BIT OF TIME TO GET US THERE
HOPE, PRAYER AND TIME

- HOPE PRAYER & TIME
by JULIA FORDHAM