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When I think of home, I think of a place where there's love overflowing....

So goes the song me and my friend sang this afternoon for the program for the blind kids.It's also during this time that Group Executive Directors were present. These high ranking officers of the Bank came all the way from London to present the cheque for the instution for the blind that we are sponsoring. Early this afternoon, they went to Malacanang to donate 1 million pesos for the Bayanihan Fund (according to my Baby who is a photojournalist).

I was really elated when I was infront of the kids and was given the opportunity to sing for them. While we were singing, I heard one or two of the kids were vocal in saying " ANG GALING! " that made me smile from ear to ear-they appreciated our song!

After our song, it's the kids turn to give an intermission no for the GEDs, Simon Morris-CEO and everybody who's present at the 9th floor. We were all happy about the presentation. They sang and danced to the tune of 2 Christmas songs- a reminder that Christmas is fast approaching. It was just a short program for after the turn over of the cheque worth Php 250,000 for the institution, short speeches from Simon and Mr. Richard Meddings-one of the GEDs, ours and the kids' intermission nos, it was wrapped up with photo op with the 2 visiting GEDs.

When the program proper was over, one of the blind kids was carried by Simon and he was so comfortable he didn't want to go down! Lester and I were kidding about the scene, I mentioned to him that the kid is brilliant to know who to go to - the CEO himself! =D

I was so happy to have the opportunity to sing for the kids and be recognized also by Mr. Richard Medding. I know he doesn't know my name but atleast I shook hands with one of the Bigwigs of SCB! He was saying that we did a good performance! To be frank, I can no longer remember the exact words he said, I was that elated to have met him and shook hands with him. When Simon saw the 3 of us-Kata, Mr. Richard and I having small talk, he butted in and said " these 2 have the voices of an angel " =D The scene was REALLY intoxicating! Hope the GEDs can still remember us when they get back to London.

Also this afternoon I became an instant usherette. When Simon saw me, he told me to usher Ms. Ruth Markland to the restroom and assist her back to his office. And I did what Simon told me, I showed Ms. Ruth the way to the restroom and showed her back to Simon's office. Although all along I thought she was following me but when I looked back, she was talking to one of the MANCO officers. Simon saw me and I told him that Ms. Ruth is talking to Ambei. He just smiled and waited for us. I opened the door for Ms. Ruth when their talk was over. Honestly, I felt awkward then. She is like one of the THE gods & goddesses! It was REALLY an honor to assist her. She might not know my name and it might not be a great gesture but having the opportunity to assist her in whatever small ways I can is worth it.

By the way, all of us were wearing the SCB shirt, guess what size I was wearing- Medium. My friend said that's the only size available and that 's what they gave us. When I learned that Pinoy has small sized shirts but were made for the blind kids, I asked him if I can get the small size, he's so kind for he told me to get one from him later ( I was already wearing the medium size shirt at that time - just imagine a t-shirt with a hanger. It's not so lousy looking but still it's obvious that the shirt is not my size).

Contemplating on how my day went by, I can say that i'm really proud to be part of SCB. We do not just care about profits and business, we also share whatever blessings we have to the less fortunate ones, in this afternoon's case - to the special ones.This is one company where love flourish, like in a family, like HOME. Truly SCB is my second HOME and I look forward to keep coming back to this place like HOME.

I thank GOD for this day, hope my day gets better everyday!

It's appraisal time next week.I hope for the best =D

LOVE KO 'TO

Singing makes my heart glad.Singing makes my day complete, singing... I guess I was born to love it.

Early this morning, just like my usual mornings lately, i'm having difficulty getting up for I don't see any excitement and challenge on what's going to be ahead of me today. And as expected, my morning started with a talk with B which means I did something he didn't like again - earshot from my teammates and Big G. Oh well! I guess this is my storyline in CS and will always be until such time I transfer to another department which hopefully soon. You ask me why I think this way, i'll take a day an a half to discuss this - metaphorically speaking.

Anyways, my day didn't end that bad.To sum things up, after doing my usual checking of stuff done by my teammates and providing reports asked by B, little did I realize it's already quarter to 2pm and my teammate asked me to be with her in a meeting with other department. A few minutes later, it's my time to attend the performance coaching training. It went okay and we ended at 5pm.Since I haven't eaten lunch yet, just went down to my workstation and told B that I'll just take my lunch, he asked if the training only ended at that hour, I answered him back with a quick yes for i was REALLY hungry.THAT's my first meal of the day.I usually don't have time to eat breakfast for there's nothing to eat in the first place unless otherwise you will cook and prepare breakfast yourself.Well, my stomach is already used to this routine. At times I think if I still have a stomach to begin with.

During our training, my friend who's also a singer told me that I will sing solo tomorrow at the program prepared for the blind kids our Bank is giving donations to. Later I found out I wasn't the first choice, as usual if they won't be able to get somebody to sing,during the last minute they will call me or tell me to sing....History REPEATS itself AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN.....

Please don't get me wrong, I'd love to do it especially if it's for the kids. I love to sing and perform. I remember last year I was in the same state and my extra curricular activities in the office like choir and intermission nos for the programs sponsored by the CEOs office were the ones who motivated me and helped me cope up with my every day work. It's the recognition and acknowledgement also that Mr. Simon Morris, our CEO,gave me which made me boost my confidence and motivated me to go to work. Since he knows me, I don't want to be known just a good singer but a good officer as well.THAT's what helped kept me going last year....I hope this will also help me this year (crossed fingers).

Back to what I was saying about singing, I'm excited for tomorrow's activity. Hope my friend and I will be able to make our audience happy tomorrow with our singing especially the kids, they're the SPECIAL ones, they're blind. Hope the music will make them glad, make them feel we care for them and that they're no different from us. As a matter of fact, they're lucky they won't be able to see evil. I just remember this morning, on my way to work I was acting as if i'm blind at the backseat of the cab I rode.I was thinking this morning what if i'm blind.Little did I know, I'll be doing something for kids of that kind. I know I mentioned awhile back that they're lucky, I think i'm still luckier for because of my vision, I can appreciate what God has done for us to see =D

Hope i'll be whistling a happier tune tomorrow. I know tomorrow is another day but hope God will make my day tomorrow better than today.

I want to sing Jasmine Trias' song tomorrow, if my friend likes it too.
I'm singing my, i'm singing my song.Papara papa, love ko to.................

SHORT STORY

While I was replacing lost card accounts, I thought I heard somebody shouted at my ear just like what Niks usually does. I was wearing earphones then for I was listening to my cd.I REALLY screamed and Niks and Joey were still there, heard and looked at me to see what happened. When I learned that it was not Niks who did it. I got scared and took my earphones out of my head! I REALLY heard a man shouted at my left ear!

Past 10pm, while I was packing up, Niks asked me if I saw the black shadow. I said NO and I can feel the hair on my nape started to rise and i was beginning to have goosebumps! Told Niks about it and I added that I'll go ahead of him.

I guess Halloween is not yet over!

LOST IN SPACE

I guess the title says it all!

I don't know how to deal with what I'm feeling right now. I feel lost and empty inside. I don't want to sound religious but I guess this confirms the homily of the priest 2 Sundays ago. My prayers aren't answered because I'm a bad person. Have nobody to blame but myself. I don't want to plunge in the quicksand of self-pity and hopelessness but I think I'm getting there.

I don't even like the way my mind thinks lately. I don't want to sound lunatic or suicidal but morbid thoughts sometimes enter my mind and if not for my faith, most probably I won't be here anymore. I guess my frustration and depression over things aren't resolved yet. I'm the type who would just shrug things off thinking my emotions can overcome and resolve anything and everthing. I'm not the type who confronts the issues, most of the time I would always think that everything will be okay soon......... yeah right!I can easily forgive and forget but almost always be victimized again by the same person, same situation. A friend sums it all up as being gullible. She may say it that way but I always believe in what people say because I trust them so much not thinking they may betray me later on.Oh well! this is the price you have to pay for trusting too much and believing in people a lot.

Don't know where this will lead but I hope God will not let me take the plunge before HE rescues me.