LOST IN SPACE
I guess the title says it all!
I don't know how to deal with what I'm feeling right now. I feel lost and empty inside. I don't want to sound religious but I guess this confirms the homily of the priest 2 Sundays ago. My prayers aren't answered because I'm a bad person. Have nobody to blame but myself. I don't want to plunge in the quicksand of self-pity and hopelessness but I think I'm getting there.
I don't even like the way my mind thinks lately. I don't want to sound lunatic or suicidal but morbid thoughts sometimes enter my mind and if not for my faith, most probably I won't be here anymore. I guess my frustration and depression over things aren't resolved yet. I'm the type who would just shrug things off thinking my emotions can overcome and resolve anything and everthing. I'm not the type who confronts the issues, most of the time I would always think that everything will be okay soon......... yeah right!I can easily forgive and forget but almost always be victimized again by the same person, same situation. A friend sums it all up as being gullible. She may say it that way but I always believe in what people say because I trust them so much not thinking they may betray me later on.Oh well! this is the price you have to pay for trusting too much and believing in people a lot.
Don't know where this will lead but I hope God will not let me take the plunge before HE rescues me.
I don't know how to deal with what I'm feeling right now. I feel lost and empty inside. I don't want to sound religious but I guess this confirms the homily of the priest 2 Sundays ago. My prayers aren't answered because I'm a bad person. Have nobody to blame but myself. I don't want to plunge in the quicksand of self-pity and hopelessness but I think I'm getting there.
I don't even like the way my mind thinks lately. I don't want to sound lunatic or suicidal but morbid thoughts sometimes enter my mind and if not for my faith, most probably I won't be here anymore. I guess my frustration and depression over things aren't resolved yet. I'm the type who would just shrug things off thinking my emotions can overcome and resolve anything and everthing. I'm not the type who confronts the issues, most of the time I would always think that everything will be okay soon......... yeah right!I can easily forgive and forget but almost always be victimized again by the same person, same situation. A friend sums it all up as being gullible. She may say it that way but I always believe in what people say because I trust them so much not thinking they may betray me later on.Oh well! this is the price you have to pay for trusting too much and believing in people a lot.
Don't know where this will lead but I hope God will not let me take the plunge before HE rescues me.
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