MY FAVEs

Songs about unrequited and forbidden love are the ones I love to sing for you can put more emotions to your singing if those messages are what the songs convey. I've been to those situations but as they say ALL IS FAIR IN LOVE AND WAR .... on the second thoughts .....

I've been playing the cd entitled PORCELAIN by Julia Fordham on my laptop as soon as I come home from work.Her music helps me destress myself and unwind after a day's work and she never fails me.I'm thankful my cd driver is so sturdy it's still working even if I've been playing the cd all night long til the following morning... go gypsymoon!

And among the songs in the cd here are my two faves. I just wish I am a tekkie person so I would know how to put media player here so people can also hear the music and not just read the lyrics. For the meantime, I'll post the lyrics first 'til I am able to figure out how to put music on my blog .... I'll try to find out first if it is even possible.

Anyways, just settle with the lyrics and enjoy, analyze and empathize ....

LOCK AND KEY

WHEN THERE'S COMFORT IN PLEASURE AND PLEASURE IN PAIN
AND I'M WONDERING IF I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN
NO TANGLED EMOTIONS, DRAGGING US DOWN
AND THE TEXTURE OF YOUR VOICE , THE SWEETEST SOUND

I'M GONNA WRAP YOU UP AND TAKE YOU HOME WITH ME
TREASURED IN MY HEART, UNDER LOCK AND KEY

WHEN THERE'S NOTHING TO HOLD YOU, OR HOLDING YOU BACK
NO CHAINS OF ATTACHMENT ONLY BASIC FACTS
NO STRANGLED DEVOTIONS HEMMING US IN
AND THE TASTE OF YOUR SMILE WAS THE SWEETEST THING

I'M GONNA WRAP YOU UP AND TAKE YOU HOME WITH ME
TREASURED IN MY HEART, UNDER LOCK AND KEY

UNDER LOCK AND KEY MY PRECIOUS MOMENTS
MY SPECIAL MEMORIES AND YOU KNOW AND YOU KNOW
I AIN'T NEVER, NEVER, I AIN'T NEVER GONNA LET THEM GO

WHEN THERE'S COMFORT IN PLEASURE AND PLEASURE IN PAIN
AND I'M WONDERING, WONDERING IF I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN
NO TANGLED EMOTIONS, DRAGGING US DOWN
AND THE TEXTURE OF YOUR VOICE , THE SWEETEST SOUND

I'M GONNA WRAP YOU UP AND TAKE YOU HOME WITH ME
TREASURED IN MY HEART, UNDER LOCK AND KEY

Another song which I can relate to, another fave.

You may have experienced in the past, maybe at present and or in the future?

Ah!This crazy little thing called L - O - V - E and the pains that goes with it.


TOWERBLOCK

YOU MAKE ME FEEL VULNERABLE AND TOTALLY EXPOSED
YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A TEENAGER DRESSED IN A WOMAN'S CLOTHES
AND I ASK YOU, AND I ASK YOU WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?

ALL MY LIFE, I'VE BEEN THE ONE WHO'S BIG AND STRONG FOR EVERYONE
THEN YOU COME ALONG A TOWERBLOCK FOR ME TO LEAN ON
AND I ASK YOU, WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?

YOU'VE GOT ME SO I'M CURLING LIKE A KITTEN IN YOUR HAND
YOU'VE GOT ME SO I'M CLAWING LIKE A TIGER CAGED AND BOUND
AND I ASK YOU, AND I ASK YOU WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?

ALL MY LIFE, I'VE BEEN THE ONE WHO'S BIG AND STRONG FOR EVERYONE
THEN YOU COME ALONG A TOWERBLOCK FOR ME TO LEAN ON
AND I ASK YOU, WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?

ALL MY LIFE, I'VE BEEN THE ONE WHO'S ALWAYS THERE FOR EVERYONE
AND NOW I KNOW YOU'VE LET ME DOWN, WILL IT ALWAYS BE
THAT I'M THE ONLY TOWERBLOCK FOR ME

THE CRUSHER

It is usually an ordeal for me to take medicines for I've been choked several times and those experiences made me have difficulties in taking the medicines that I need for me to get well.

I was suffering from migraine for 2 consecutive nights which started last thursday but I'm not surprised anymore for every month I will suffer from it especially on weeks when my monthly friend would come and visit. Either that or dysmenorrhea, all I have to do is to wait for my body is already used to them.... these are the price of being a woman....and this is just the start, wait til you experience pregnancy. Now that I have yet to experience and be prepared for.

But nowadays I worry no more on taking my medicines for my Baby bought and sent me a very good invention for people like me - PILL CRUSHER! I am really amazed at this product. It helps make my "pill taking moments" a breeze!

I thank my Baby for thinking and taking care of me even across the miles.

You take care too coz I love you.

SOMETHING NICE TO READ ESPECIALLY FOR THOSE WHO ARE ALREADY AND SOON TO BE MARRIED

A FORWARDED MESSAGE FROM EMAIL. ENJOY READING AND LEARN ......


My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady
nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad
shoulders.

Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would
have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving
him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a
relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a
little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my complete opposite, his
lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments
into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally
decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

"Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, there are no reasons for
everything in the world!" I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a
lighted cigarette at all times.

My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't
even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him?

And finally he asked me:" What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody
said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess,
I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : "Here is the question,
if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's
say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we
both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do
it for me?"

He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just
sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper
with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining
table near the front door, that goes....

My dear,

"I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain
the reasons further.."

This first line was already breaking my heart. I! continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs,
and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I
can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to
rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to
save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches
every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your
tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by
infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to
cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for
your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to
clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I
can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the
sunshine and the beautiful sand... and tell you the colour of flowers,
just like the color of the glow on your young face...

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you
more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. "

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting...
and as I continue on reading...

"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied,
please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your
favorite bread and fresh milk...

I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching
tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread....

Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does,
and I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of
excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies
in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has
never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form...
flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the
relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... and
that's our life... Love, not words win arguments...

GIRL'S NIGHT OUT

Seldom would I go out or spend overnight in a hotel with my girl friends or sleep on somebody else's house just to have fun. I'm not really into sleep overs however, what we did this weekend is one of those rare moments that I would spend time with my girl friends and I'm glad I did!

The three of us checked-in in one of the fancy hotels in the metro and just let loose and tried to catch up with whatever we have missed in the past months. One of these two friends of mine is getting married to an Irish this December and she had her make up trial at our room last Saturday. The artist is really good and I know my friend will look sooo good on her wedding day. I'm happy for her and I have high hopes that this relationship will flourish although they have different cultural backgrounds.

Love moves in mysterious ways as Julia Fordham puts it.

It's really amazing how two people meet online, befriended each other and fall in love in the process. He's her first and she's his - now call it fate or what!

The other friend is in love with a Caucasian as well. As far as I know she's a NBSB club member - No Boyfriend Since Birth. I've been telling her that she's not fit to be with a true blue Pinoy for she's brilliant and independent and has a strong personality which can only be equalled by a foreigner or a Pinoy who grew up abroad. She spent some years herself in the States that's why she's accustomed to such culture. She's not the typical liberated type but she is intellectually liberated but spiritually conservative. Now that's what I call a good catch!

The whole weekend was spent well with these two great friends of mine.I'm happy to have friends like them who understands and comforts you and who's there whenever you need a cushion to catch you when you fall.We have a lot of things in common but most importantly aside from all of us are independent women, all of us are spiritually strong and what's more amazing all of us are not really part of one religion - 2 of us are Catholics and 1 is Christian and to top it all we know how to have fun!

Being spiritual or religious doesn't equate to being boring for we are examples of fun loving but spiritually engaged individuals.

I think I should do this 'going out with friends' more often. During the time when my Baby's still here with me I chose not to go out with friends but I'd rather stay with him or just be with him.

Taking time out is not really bad at all, as a matter of fact it does you good and I know I'm on the right track!

JULIA

I came across the cd of Julia Fordham given to me 2 years ago by a dear friend of mine, Pam , who now resides in Australia with her Aussie hubby.

I like her message on the cd which comforts me in this rainy season. Here goes ....

" May Julia
.... keep you warm on cold rainy night
.... keep you smiling than the sunshine
.... keep your heart good company at all times

just as she does me =D "

And she's correct, Julia keeps me company in the cold & rainy nights. She is one of the reasons why Pam and I bonded, we both LOVE her.

Julia's voice is very comforting and soothing. And her songs are very emotionally appealing.

My battlecry : JULIA FORDHAM FOREVER!!!!!!!!!

DIRECTIONs

I can see clearly now the rain is gone ... so goes a song.

That's how I'm feeling right now about work. I can say that we are gearing towards a good direction with the help of our new boss. She has vision and she assists us to meet this goal.

I'm still in the process of assessing her but I hope she really is what I think she is. Although a little bird told me that she hates pressure and that she can afford not to work for her husband can very well provide for her and their family and these are the reasons why she left the other Bank.

OH WELL! ..... JUST KEEP THE FAITH!

RAINY DAYS & SUNDAYS

It's been raining hard lately, typhoons come and go especially during this month 'til December.The rainy season usually starts in May and would end early part of January then the countdown begins for summer.... time for the beach once again YIPEEEEE!!!

I love this season because of the weather, it's cold and I love to snuggle in bed with my comforter wrapped around me and the electric fan on! Weird? well that's me. I guess each one of us has his or her own idiosyncracies and those idiosyncracies make us unique persons.

What I abhor about this season are flood and traffic. And I was one of those unfortunate ones who have to pass by flooded areas on my way to work and back home.And usually taxi drivers don't want to tread on those paths and this is also one reason why I dislike this season for I'm having a hard time getting a cab that will take me to work. I have no choice since it's the only mode of transportation that can get me there.Oh well that's life! I'm thinking of buying a car but there are more problems to deal with if I'll buy one. Besides, I'd rather save the money for the monthly amortization, once I have more than enough that's the time I'll buy a brand new one with the car model of my liking.But for now, I'll settle with taxis, all I have to do is to hail it and off I go. Unlike if I have my own car I still have to worry about parking, parking fee, insurance, oil price and the list goes on....

Rainy days on weekends are the best times to reflect on what has happened in your life and what you want to do in the future. The sound of the rain dropping on the ground and the roof is very soothing and calming too, that's the rain's effect on me. This plus music on the background is the perfect moment to daydream He! He! He!. Hot choco or native hot cocoa, coffee, champorado with tuyo or arroz caldo ..... and the list of fave food for this season continues..... YUMMY!!!!!!

This is also when my creative juices flow out. I'm in the mood to paint again! I've been looking at my paintings lately and I was thinking that I miss my paint, pastel crayons and paper. I just use any paper - whatever is available at home that's what I use and I seldom use paintbrush. My fingers are my paintbrushes and they serve me well =D

Adib, a new found Singaporean friend of mine, commented that my paintings are good and reflects my inner self. I agree. All the paintings that I did have a story behind it. Whether it be driven by boredom, feeling of being in a limbo, confused or basically just happy!

I truly thank God for I have a lot of avenues to express how I feel be it in photography, painting, dancing or singing, not to mention writing and the list continues. I used to write poems especially during my teen age years but I lost touch with that side of my artistic talent.One of these days I'll revive my passion for writing poetry.

Today is the culmination of the week and tomorrow is the start of another bout of challenging and stressful work week. Oh well! I'll just take one day at a time.I know SOMEBODY is guiding and protecting me and helping me pull through each day. As the saying goes ....

" If HE puts you to it, HE will pull you thru it. "

I BELIEVE.

BACK TO BASICs

My trip abroad made me relive my old self as mentioned in my previous blog and it means going back to basics.

I once again listen to my various collections of cds from the classical repertoire of Andrea Bocelli, Sarah Brightman & Charlotte Church to the hard core heavy metal music of Rock bands like Metallica and Guns N Roses just to mention a few. Yup! I LOVE music - ALL kinds.

Music plays a very big part of my daily routine nowadays. I noticed that looking back when I'm happy and unburden with unnecessary stress I'm into music. Now let me just rephrase that, I think nowadays I'm just beginning to see things differently and music is one of my coping mechanisms. It helps me get a goodnight sleep and makes me feel happy about everything that is happening in my life right now - whether at work or at home.

At night, I would play the cd of Andrea Bocelli continuously as if he's singing me a lullaby ( How I wish somebody can do the same to me nowadays he he he ) and I would wake up to his music the following morning as if he's serenading me! His voice is soothing to the ears and his singing so passionate it's as if he's really singing for you.Best part is if you translate his songs to English, the lyrics are VERY ROMANTIC! Now how can that NOT make your day!

Basically, music calms my spirit and soul - that's its effect in me.And recently, I'm singing again which means I'm HAPPY! It's also as if the excitement of going to auditions are pouring in on me again although this time I have no auditions to go to. That's how passionate I am again right now when it comes to singing.Speaking of auditions, although I have been to some like Miss Saigon and Rent but wasn't really able to make it to the finals I'm still glad I went. Atleast I can say to myself that I've tried and found out what happend next instead of not going and wondering what could have happened. Going to auditions also helped me learn to cope up with life's challenges and be more confident with myself and my strengths and try not to deal with my weaknesses.These are the lessons learned also whenever I'm not fortunate enough to win in a singing competition.You win some you lose some, so they say.

Everything started in Singapore when Gemma (my new found British friend)and I passed by one of the karaoke bars and we decided to give it a try. We stayed there for 3 hours and we had a ball! It was also an opportunity for me to sing the songs I love and showcase my talent to my new found friend. I remember David, one of the locals that we both met, commented when he learned that I'm a Filipino that we are gifted with a golden voice. He's really amazed and impressed that we are good in singing.Too bad he's not able to witness another Filipina who's good at it! (He! He! He! now THAT's what I call confidence!)

I once again can live without television, just my cellphone, laptop and music and I'm fine.... I'm alive! Say goodbye to my couch/bed (literally) potato days although there's just one thing right now that I can't get rid of... watching news especially from the local channels and Channel News Asia.

I'm singing my hearts out again which means I'm also inspired to do other stuff in my life. I know I'm on the right track and I'm happy. I just hope I'll be able to sustain this happy tune for the rest of my life.

LOVE QUOTES

" LOVE is not to FORGET but to FORGIVE, not to SEE but to UNDERSTAND, not to HEAR but to LISTEN,
not to LET GO but to HOLD ON. "


" Don't ever leave the one you LOVE for the one you LIKE, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love."

LOVE STORY

Here's one cute love story that I want to share to everybody. Happy reading and hopefully you get inspired by it =D


AN AMAZING LOVE STORY
He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice
coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter.
"would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee."
Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face
turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.
She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby? He replied: "when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I
could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there". While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched.
That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home.
Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.
They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had
tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!
Then the story was just like every beautiful love
story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some
salt in the coffee e, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee.
Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but
I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..
Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so
I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life!
Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. " Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee again".
Her tears made the letter totally wet.Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee? It's sweet. She replied.

THE GREAT CHALLENGE OF LIFE by Jim Rohn

Here's the great challenge of life - You can have more than you've got because you can become more than you are.

I have found that income seldom will exceed your own personal development. Once in awhile income takes a lucky jump, but unless you grow out to where it is it will go back to where you are. Somebody once said that if you took all the money in the world and divided it among everyone equally, it would soon be back in the same pockets. However, you can have more because you can become more.You see, here is how the other side of the coin reads - unless you change how you are, you will always have what you've got. The marketing plan won't do it. It's a good plan but it won't work without you. You've got to work it. It is the human effect that counts. If you could send a sales manual out to recruit - wouldn't that be lovely? The major thing that makes the difference is what YOU do.

In order to have more, you need to become more. The guy says " If I had a good job I would really pour it on, but I have this lousy job so I just goof off." If that is your philosophy you are destined to stay there.Some people say if I had a lot of money I would be really generous, but I don't have much sso I'm not generous.

See, you've got to change that philosophy or you will never have " the lots of money ". Unless YOU change, IT won't change. Amazingly, however, when we throw out our blame list and start becoming more ourselves - the difference is everything else will begin to change around us.

SHORT TALE

My 4-month old baby is sick. She has ear infection. I'm sad. She's not as active as before. Has not much appetite either. I just hope her medicines will take effect as soon as possible so she can get well.

She truly brings joy in our household.

Get well soon Daphne, my japanese spitz baby!

SIDE TRIPS

My friend from the office has flown to Singapore this morning, HOW I WISH I'M IN HIS SHOES! I really want to go back, but can't.

The best thing that I can do is to ask him to bring home goodies from that country which has a soft spot in my heart. Since I still have extra dollars from my trip last month, I asked him to buy me trinkets and perfume. I even let him use the phone cards I have since they still have enough load for calls. I just told him to give them back to me 'cause they are souvenirs of my recent trip.

If I want to experience how's like to be in Singapore again, I just tune in to Channel New Asia, thanks to cable I can be in places I want to be in at a particular moment.

I really hope things will pan out soon. I hope HE will give me this opportunity to work abroad, I hope HE will hear and grant my petition. I HOPE ... AND PRAY ......

QUOTE

" Once you conquer your mind, you have conquered the world. Once you have found joy and beauty within, the whole world becomes infused with joy and beauty.Once you are successful inside, external success is yours. Once you surrender our desires to the Almighty, you are free of your personal whims and ambitions. Then the Divine Will itself becomes your desire. "

by PANDIT RAJMANI TIGUNAIT, Ph.D

ONE-LINERs

*"It takes a MINUTE to have a crush an HOUR to like someone and a DAY to
love someone but it takes a LIFETIME to forget someone"

*"God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage. If God brings you to
it, He will bring you through it."

*"We make a Living by what we get, We make a Life by what we give."

*"REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL."

MONTHSARY

We are together for exactly 3 years and 11 months now. Next month will be our 4th year and we will be celebrating the event apart.

How ironic, you'll be commemorating your togetherness for 4 years separately!

Across the miles, with different time zones and it's supposedly a celebration, I kinda expect what's going to happen ...

Long distance relationship entails patience, I just hope I will be able to stand the test of time.

AND THE STORY CONTINUES .....

ANNIVERSARY

Today marks my first year anniversary in the Bank that I am working for right now. Indeed, time runs fast when you're having fun, or am I? he he he

HOPE

Had one on one talk with my new boss. She said that she's still looking for a Manager who will handle our section since she's the Head of the department, she'll be needing somebody who will really focus on our unit solely. She told me that she'll ensure that training will be given to me and she made a commitment to allot atleast 30 minutes after office hours for my training.

This I will have to see....

- H O P E -

NEWCOMER

Finally ! our new Manager who double hats as the Department Head arrived today. Atleast we now have a leader after only the three of us Asst Managers are left running the unit for more than 2 months now and we're all fending for ourselves because until now the turn over of the one who left is not yet over. Of course with the help of the Head of Cards Centre and the Head of the Retail Credit Group we were able to get by.

Her arrival also is the start of a new beginning for the whole unit for we will no longer be part of the Card Centre but rather we are directly reporting to the office of the Head of Retail Credit Group.It's a whole new organizational chart and it's kinda new to me since in my whole career my job is always part of the Card Centre from SCB to the company that I'm working for now.

I have high expectations in our new boss.She used to be a colleague of mine although her background is really Collections. I just hope she would also bring out the best in me. I know I can be good in this new field that I'm taking after having been in Customer Service for 7 years. I'm really eager to learn all parts of the Cards Centre Business. I'm very much grateful to the BIG J, the one who used to Head the Credit Cycle Department for she gave me an opportunity to learn credit and I'm learning it from somebody who's one of those who pioneered SCB cards centre.

She first hired me as a Credit Evaluator and let me handle the support group, 4 months after, she offered me the Asst. Manager position in Collections, ergo, here I am right now. I'd rather not discuss what happened along the way but should I be given proper training since day one, I know I can handle the unit better but at times promises are made to be broken even by those people you truly trust... another lesson learned.I'm not blaming BIG J for this, not her fault.She's not the one involved in the first place.

Oh well....... LIFE HAS TO MOVE ON ......

... AND THE ADVENTUREs CONTINUE ..............

TIMELY

" Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."
~anonymous

This is a quote from the email I received today, very timely I must say for this morning I woke up catching my breath and having a hard time breathing, there was even a time I can't breath at all!

In this short span of time I was thinking I might not be able to survive. I was not being over reactive but honestly that's how I felt early this morning. My throat was dry and I woke up with my pillow over my face, yeah I know that's the culprit and it was my fault since I like putting a pillow over my eyes - one of my rituals before going to sleep. But as soon as I regained my normal breathing back, I TRULY THANKED GOD for giving me another day, another chance. I attended today's mass in the building to show how grateful I am for this opportunity to spend another day here on earth.

I don't want to sound dramatic here but when you are at the verge of THAT dreadful moment you would be feeling the same thing.

I usually start my morning prayer with 'THANK YOUs ' and whenever I say the words , I do mean them only this morning the intensity is doubled.

Right now I can already humor myself on what had happened. Looking back, that's not the way I want to end my life.... HEADLINE : DIED WHILE SLEEPING... How UNGLAMOROUS! he he he.. who says death is?

Seriously, if it's my time I hope God will allow me to say my goodbyes to the people who I love dearly, let them have closure too.

But right now the best thing that I can do is to do what I NEED to do on a daily basis. That way I will not have the dilemna of COULD HAVE, WOULD HAVE , SHOULD HAVEs.... so help me GOD.

BEAUTIFULLY STATED

SOMETHING TO PONDER ABOUT......


" As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to
ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken
probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so
remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best
friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry
because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you
love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've
never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute
of happiness you'll never get back. "

UBE THOTS

LAUGH at your mistakes but learn from them.
JOKE over your troubles but gather strength from them.
HAVE FUN with your difficulties but overcome them.

LESSONS LEARNED

I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper.
The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
I've learned...that we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask
for.
I've learned...that money doesn't buy class.

I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings that make life so
spectacular.
I've learned...that under every one's hard shell is someone who wants to
be appreciated and loved.


I've learned...that the Lord didn't do it all in one day.
What makes me think I can?
I've learned...that to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
I've learned.

I've learned...that the less time I have to work, the more things I get
done.

"I'm not gonna claim the above as my own writing, just want to share a portion of the email that was sent to me by a friend and below are my lessons learned :

- I'VE LEARNED THAT IN LOSING ONESELF YOU REDEEMED SOMEBODY ELSE's.
- I'VE LEARNED THAT IN GIVING YOU ARE ALSO RECEIVING.
- I'VE LEARNED THAT IN WINNING YOU ARE ALSO LOSING.
- I'VE LEARNED THAT WALKING IS BETTER THAN RUNNING.
- I'VE LEARNED THAT SILENCE IS LOUD AT TIMES.
- I'VE LEARNED THAT IT'S EASY TO LEARN NEW THINGS BUT IT'S HARD TO FORGET THE
OLD ONES.
- I'VE LEARNED THAT THERE ARE THREE TYPES OF PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD :
1) THE SPECTATOR
2) THE PASSERBY
3) THE RESIDENT
- ..... AND THE LEARNINGS CONTINUE........... " -

ONE-LINER

" STRANGERS are FAMILIES you have yet to come to know. "

- from FIVE PEOPLE YOU MEET IN HEAVEN by Mitch Albom

TRUE FRIEND

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty,
He said...no.

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever
and he said no.

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry
and once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the
boy grabbed her arm and said...

You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die.

"A beautiful story forwarded to me this afternoon. Short but sweet. But after this scene ..... what's next? ... wish I know the answer"

INSOMIA

Can't believe I'm still awake at this hour, guess oversleeping is the culprit. Gotta catch some decent sleep lately for my "birthday trip" made me lose the sleep I have on my normal days. On my last night abroad I even only had an hour date with my bed and off I went to the airport! I have no regrets though, none at all for I had fun...... I HAD A BALL! and if only I could turn back time or repeat everything again and again, I will but I can't. Truly time flies REALLY fast when you are having fun. Cliche but true.

I've been wanting to write all about my new adventure on my birthday bash this year but don't know where to start. I have loads of stories to tell and pictures to share. I LOVE EVERYTHING that I saw and experienced on this special place but most importantly I'm very much lucky and grateful for having to meet a number of wonderful people.

Bottomline of everything is, I still am able to live up to my plan and decision of having a different birthday celebration each year and so far this is THE BEST. It really is a wonderful experience to travel abroad and be enlightened by the different cultures.Also this trip helped me regain my old self back and I'm loving it!....my independence, my plans to work abroad, my dreams before I entered the relationship I have now and the life I want to live. I just hope I won't be able to like it too much I will tend to forget about the other plans. Anyways, it's a different story altogether.

I'm planning to go back soon but it's just a thought. Hopefully, God will grant my recent petition, THAT will make me go back sooner than next year. I really want to fulfill the dream and the life I want before I settle down ... if I have the opportunity to do so.

It's a risk I'm taking but I know this will make me a better person and a BETTER half later on, literally and figuratively speaking.

Truly this is a one of a kind experience, very unique ...... uniquely Singapore!

I'M A FIG TREE

JUNE 21

Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, sexually oriented, great sense of humour, has artistic talent and great intelligence

Got this from my Sister-in-law's forwarde email. Amazingly this is true, just not sure about the " sexually oriented ' part he he he. I'll post the rest so you'll be able to find out yours.... so what tree are you?


Find your tree below and see what you are like...

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree

Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree

Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree

Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree

Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree

Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree

Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree

Mar 0 1 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree

Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree

Mar 21 (only) - Oak Tree

Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree

Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree

Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree

Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree

May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree

May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree

May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree

Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree

Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree

Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree

Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree

Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree

Jul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm Tree

Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree

Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree

Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree

Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree

Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree

Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree

Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree

Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree

Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree

Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree

Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree

Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree

Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree

Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree

Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree

Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree

TREES (in alphabetical order)

Apple Tree (Love) - quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and
attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive,
loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive,
demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks,
materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good
leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.)

Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly,
unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the
vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of
imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

Cedar Tree (Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes
unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, Born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what
life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest
demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humour, practical.

Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, sexually oriented, great sense of humour, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

Fir tree (Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humour, very demanding but
can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) - of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks comfortable as for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

Oak Tree (Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action. Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, Difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.

UBE THOTS

LIFE is short so break the rules.
FORGIVE quickly,
BELIEVE slowly,
LOVE truly,
LAUGH &
NEVER regret anything that made you smile.

PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON

" People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometim! es they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant."


I got this from a forwarded email by my Sister the other day ..... When you are a traveller in this journey called LIFE, you will realize that people come and go and they have a purpose in doing so.

So, for those travellers like me, enjoy the ride and hopefully you'll meet a lot of people who will be a part of you not just for a SEASON OR REASON BUT for a LIFETIME.